I don't exactly know who, but I know someone once said that one of the most despondent emotions to ever feel, is the realization of opportunities lost, and this is the moment when ignorance is bliss.

I don't know if this is an opportunity or not. But its something my heart wants.

I am feeling sick right now. Very sick. Is it possible to cry and regurgitate at the same time?

I think this shows that I lack the courage to follow my heart. I'm forever embroiled in a constant battle between self preservation and innate happiness, which might just take 10 years off my life.