Its been a hell of an emotional week, that's all I can say. I've been bombarded with so much negative feelings about my image and body that its taken a toll on my mental health. My dreams of late have been symbolic of self image, transformation and fear and I shudder to think of its connection to the going ons in my current situation.

I need to exercise discipline. Its funny, because I have no problems in the discipline department when it comes to working out, but when it comes to eating.

Fuck me.

I need. Accountability. I need a routine.