I feel too big for my skin.

And I think we all know the answer to that. I am a fat cow. I deserve to die.

Seriously what is wrong with me? I try so hard. Seriously. Everyday I tell myself you CANNOT regress, but I always end up doing it. You have no idea how much I hate me.

What's worse than being fat, looking like a man (because I take after my dad), having unfeminine broad shoulders, being short and fat, thick unsightly calves & my overall lack of feminine curves? I'm too stupid to do anything.

I'm going to die. Life is too insignificant for me right now. I can'd do this anymore. I just can't't.