My List of Hottest Men to Ever Walk the Planet

1. Derek Morgan, from Criminal Minds

2. Jake Gyllenhaal

3. Michael Moscovitiz, from The Princess Diaries

4. Jack St Bride, from Salem Falls

5. Jesse Cardoza, from CSI Miami.

Did I mention that Derek Morgan is simply hot tamale? OMG I AM ABSOLUTELY IN LOVE WITH HIM. BE MINE PLEASE.

Just printed a few piano sheets off the Internet. Was attempting to play Colors of the Wind this afternoon and my playing was so sporadic. Like a start and stop kind of thing. I can't seem to connect my fingers with the keynotes on the music sheet, and I can't switch fingers smoothly. Hence, the weird playing. But its a start, for I managed to play the entire piece with both hands.

I printed "Looking Through Your Eyes" and the main theme from Harry Potter to practice next. There doesn't seem to be any piano lessons near the community centre near my place so its Do-It-Yourself for the time being. Oh goodness and dance. Aaargh. Dance. I suppose I'm officially out of the ensemble, which sucks balls because it means my only means of training for performance is fucking shot. I mean, honestly, its either studies or dance. I can't give a 100% to studies because of dance, and yet I can't give a 100% to dance because of studies. And I'm always afraid that these 2 would clash. And I know they will clash, hence its either studies or dance. And I chose studies, because going to a reputable university is so MUCH important to be than being the best dancer there is.

But I also want to a be an awesome dancer. I'm just average now. Hell I still can't do a proper turn, and I've been at this for over a year. Something is wrong with me. Someone just shoot me and throw my mangled body down the drain, please because this is so much to bear. Universities, dance, piano, language, body image.

I should be on Oprah for this.

Say hello to my new wallpaper <3

The first day of 2011 was spent watching Sex & The City 2. Honestly this movie is SO much better than the first one, considering how the first movie was too sexually explicit for my liking. I absolutely cannot watch a sex scene with my mother, sister, or any other family member for that matter. Especially my dad because he might think I'm a pervy ass, which I am so not. Its just that I love Carrie and Samantha and Charlotte and Miranda and their chick exploits!

I don't believe in making new year resolutions, because they're meant to be broken anyway. I mean, come on, name ONE person who has ever made a resolution and stuck to them. Regardless, this year marks my final year in polytechnic and my dreams to go the States have been shot. But that doesn't mean I can still work there in the future! Like Singapore is so measly and tiny and boring!

My dad has been hounding me about university applications and this is pretty much making me stressed out (Pop, didn't you hear that stress can make one fat?!?!?!) and I'm freaked that I might not be able to enter a local university. Have heard so many weird claims about NTU and NUS from Dr Tan, like how you have to maintain at least a B grade in order to stay in NUS' Psychology program.

I'm not sure which is a better university to go to: NUS or NTU. Was checking the websites out and it seems that NTU has a better...social...environment? Like there are a lot of student communities going on, whereas NUS seems so...bare. Which might be better for me, since I'm such a nerd and probably would prioritize my studies above extracurricular activities, though I would want to continue with dance and Spanish lessons and piano lessons!

Yeah so this year I'm REALLY hoping. To enter a local university, like either NUS or NTU. To lose weight, because I really DO need, and want to lose weight. And improve my Spanish, piano and dance. Was thinking of going beyond my French basics. I understand some basic French conversation, but I know squat about its grammar and all.

And I should just get MP out the way.

Feeling peckish now. I WILL NOT EAT NOW. NOT AT THIS LAST HOUR.

I WILL NOT YIELD TO THE TEMPTATION OF BISCUITS AND CHOCOLATES IN THE FRIDGE.

Maybe I'll have an almond or two.

Oh sod it. I'm going to watch Criminal Minds.

I Have Risen!

Do not be fooled by his gorgeous profile characterized by his absence of hair.

Underneath that statuesque block of smouldering dark chocolate is a human being who is protective and kind-hearted who knows how to make a woman feel special.

Did I mention that I have a sweet tooth. Very. Sweet tooth.

I don't understand why people manage to somehow weave their relationship and love lives into their blog posts and it becomes so....momentous to them.

I'm beginning to see why I chose to leave Blogger. Plus, this is why I cannot become a counselor. People who don't verbalize their feelings tend to annoy me after a while. Like dude. Just. Freaking. Say. It. It doesn't have to be in all snazzy poetic language. Just. Say. It.

Feeling a little confused lately. Just realized the extent to which how ambivalent I can get about trade-offs in my life.

I haven't been dancing for almost 2 weeks and I feel...bad. I mean. I want to dance. And get better. But priorities are priorities. And my trading dance for studies right now and its just weird. I love dancing and I really want to train for ANY performance that there might be but its just.

AAARGH.

I wish I had started dancing earlier in life.
I want to resume piano again. After OSIP ends.

It amazes me how some people can fill their blog posts with so much passion and words mixed with snazzy vocabulary. Its like their language they use for theie blog posts are meant for poems. Not blogs. But whatever.

I don't even know why I cam here to blog. I can't bring myself to start studying for A.B. Maybe its because I'm consciously aware of the fact that I've started studying SO late beforehand it panics me. BUT NO. I refuse to let my GPA slide because I want to go to Australia for OSIP.

So there.

Screw my social life, or lack of.

Okay so before you say anything, let me just say I'm going to revive my blog and start blogging again for a bit, because Big T (Thomas Sim) says we all need a healthy outlet to channel our frustrations and feelings, otherwise we may turn to drugs and whatnot (:

I cannot believe school term is ending in a less than 2 weeks. And hopefully Azeemha, Shoe, Hong Cherh & I get selected to go to Australia for our intership as a Research Assistant at Flinders University. Now I have to figure out how I'm going to survive there with the possibility of not having almods at my disposal, and not exercising everyday because I need to get in shape. Shoe suggested growing an almond tree which I admit, sounds like an awesome idea.

Just hope I get selected to go to Australia first! Eunice mentioned that we get selected based on grades and sense of responsibility & all. And I just hope I can score for A.B and Child Psyche tests which are in less than 2 weeks, to which I have NOT yet studied for.

I skipped dance trg today to get A.B powerpoint slides done. And start studying for A.B. I feel. Bad. Because I've not been dancing properly for a while. Though if I get selected to go to Aus, I won't be dancing for about 3 months or something along those lines.

I watched Inception with Shoe on Wednesday and it was simply mind-banging. Leonardo is awesome. I love his movies: Titanic, Blood Diamond & Body of Lies.

Just went to the Student Portal and found out I got 24 points for NAPFA test, which translates into a Silver award. Which sucks, because I was counting on a Gold, but I did horrid for the Shuttle Run & Standing Broad Jump, which sucks even more because these 2 were my best stations in secondary school. I could do 9 seconds and 180cm back in the old days. BAM =/

More later.