Since I'm headed to Buffalo in a little more than a week, I promise I will try to record as much of my exchange stories as much as I can so as to preserve the memories that I accumulate.

I know I say I don't need a man in my life all the time, and that just pining for a man goes against my feminist principles.

But the truth is, I want to be swept off my feet. I don't want to be the girl going after the man.

I want him to make the first move.
I want him to notice me for my personality (looks wouldn't be so bad either)
I want him to say I have a beautiful smile and sparkling eyes.
I want him to say he thinks I have a fiery personality.
I want him to say he finds me interesting and wants to know me better.
I want him to ask me out.
I want him to wait outside my apartment as I get ready for our date.
I want him to say "you look beautiful" no matter what I wear.
I want him to invite me to a slow-dance with him right in the middle of dinner, just because he knows I like dancing, even if we can't slow dance.
I want him to be protective of me, though not to the point of being clingy.
I want him to look out for me and my best interests.
I want him to kiss me with fiery passion.
I want him to twirl his fingers in the curl of my hair and tell me that my hair is amazing.

The truth is, sometimes I feel lonely. I'm not desperate, for your information, but I'm currently at the point in my life where I'm seeking companionship, not just with close female friends, but with a man whom I can share my soul with, who understands me and is willing to enter a relationship with me.

The truth is, I say I don't need a man in my life, but I would very much like one.

Quick updates. 

#1. My plan to fix this blasted blog HTML code appears to be naught. I shall simply use this disastrous layout until I find a better way to resolve this mess. 

#2. Finished reading The Hobbit. Not as magnificent as I thought it would be, given the way the prose is written, but nevertheless I'm excited to see the movie adaptations this December. I'm confused as to why Jackson would create a new female character for the next two movies who isn't even mentioned in the book, and why he would want Orlando Bloom to return despite NONE of the Fellowship, except Gandalf, being inside the Hobbit. 

#3. I'm left with less than a week to churn out a 10,000 word report. I won't even talk to you about its progress. I'm counting on last minute bursts of inspiration and luck to get me through. 

#4. Finally talked to my therapist after a month about some issues that are bothering me. She's given me homework, and her assignment is making me rethink some things in my life and what my future plans will be. 

#5. Got my visa to the US settled, along with the required health verifications. All I need to do now is to send the forms off to Buffalo and I'm left with tickets and worrying about finances.

#6. I made the mistake of watching Alien on television and am now having trouble clearing my mind whilst lying in bed, and I'm just dreading that I'll see a giant slimy alien hovering above me ready to strike my brains out. Or worse, set a facehugger one me. Oh God. I'm going to be sick.

#7. SIM-UB networking session last week to give the UB-bound SIM students a heads up about Buffalo. I knew nobody there and felt so awkward but we were put in groups and I got put with the group of Americans, which was a good thing because that way, I was able to get first hand information about Buffalo, such as safety and expenses. I always knew Americans were loud, but my god talking to so many of them at once overwhelmed the bejesus out of me because their voice carries. I felt like I was walking next to loudspeakers. 6 loudspeakers to be exact. But they're super friendly and chummy and I felt pretty at ease talking to them once we set down to eat dinner together. The other SIM girl with me barely spoke 5 sentences. 

#8. Going through a bout of relapses because doing shift work at the restaurant is messing with my eating patterns. Am attempting to fix it. Gah. 

#9. Continuing with The Fellowship of the Ring after abandoning it at the 5th chapter for The Hobbit. 

#10. Finally watched somme classic 90s movies: Ghost (1990), Far and Away (1992), Con Air (1997), Jurrasic park (1993), My Best Friend's Wedding (1997) and Face/Off (1997). So excellent. 

My room is so quiet and empty, it hurts. - Nina LaCour

"Hello Cameron"

"Hello hummingbird"

Best Nicholas Cage movie ending ever. 

Sad movie scene make me cry and go weak at the knees. For instance:

1. When it finally dawns on Rose that Jack is dead and she has to let him sink into the icy waters, 
2. When Bruce Willis makes his final video call to Liv Tyler in Armaggeddon and gives her his blessings and lets her marry Ben Affleck. 
3. When Josh Harnett took the bullets for Ben Affleck who then later has to watch his best friend die in Pearl Harbour. 
4. Anything in The Pianist (Adrien Brody rightfully deserved that Academy Award)
5. When Kate comes down the stairs and asks her dad if she looks pretty in My Sister's Keeper. 
6. When King Kong fell off the Empire State Building in King Kong (2005). 
7. When Joaquin Pheonix realizes that he'll never make it out the building and tells John Travolta to pull the other firefighters back, and Joaquin then tells John to tell his wife that he loves her in Ladder 49. 
8. When Will Smith had to put his dog down in I Am Legend. 
9. When Paul Walker returns to Antarctica to find his dogs, only to realize that while all of them had escaped, one of the dogs remained faithfully behind but had died due to the extreme cold weather and lack of food. I couldn't stop crying after that scene was over and hugged my baby for hours of end. 
10. When Marley died, both in the book and the movie. 
11. When Aragorn and the whole of Gondor bowed to the 4 Hobbits at Aragorn's coronation. 
12. When Gandalf fell from the Bridge of Khazad Dum. 

And here's a little something more cheery to brighten the evening before bed. 

Could there be anything else more exciting than the release of this trailer? No, there isn't. This trailer completely got my mojo up, but its just weird to see a female character come into the movie after watching 4 Peter Jackson movies that are so heavily laced with testosterone. 

Still, I think it'll be good. I can't wait to see the scenes where the dwarves come tumbling in barrels in the water, ever since watching the production videos of The Hobbit online. 

I'd blog more but I had a long day today. Worked full shift from 12pm to 11pm and being Sunday and being Father's Day, it was so crowded and just kept us all busy. My feet ache. Another long day tomorrow and Tuesday. URECA report due in 2 weeks and I haven't finished it yet. I'be been ordered to do last minute data collection.  Did I mention my feet ache. Gah. 

OOH Glee's on. Its episode 7, Dynamic Duets and Kitty and Marley are singing Holding Out of a Hero! They're both so good together. Okay. Watch them sing. Then sleep. 

My feet ache. Shit. Why won't TP call me back? I'm going to harass somebody tomorrow, I swear I'm not in the mood to play waiting games. Its approaching July.